Last week I was called into work 2 times and even though I really, really, really, wanted to say no. I didn't. And then I kicked myself after because I have an essay to write, and a chapter to read, and scripts to memorize...but sure... I'll come in... *cue tears
Right now I am taking full time units, working full time hours, and still trying to find time for some creative freedom. I realize that a lot of students do this, so it's not really something I should be complaining about. But I am. Because I am 19 years old, and I shouldn't be worrying about the amount of things that I do (like every other 19 year old I know who is also working and going to school).
I guess for me it's harder to see "the light at the end of the tunnel" because I'm not going to school working toward my desired career. I am going to school as a back up plan for my desired career, so I am unmotivated and lazy most of the time. And I feel like this happens to so many people my age. You go to school because you have too, work because you are tired of spending your parents money, but end up using that money you earn on school, or food. I am baffled at the amount of people my age who are moved out, going to school, and working, and are able to pay for it themselves. I am living for free and still have no money by the time my next paycheck comes. And I am working full time hours.
I don't really have a solution to this problem, because I don't have time to think about it. What would just be really nice, is some free time. I haven't seen my friends in 2 months because we are all so busy. That's sad. We are teenagers, and are too busy working minimum wage for, essentially, our gas to drive to our minimum wage job. I guess you could say I'm going a little crazy and would really like this semester to end.